I Am A Muslim?

(Ejazz Khan, Lahore)

Assalam-0-Alaikum...

Main Hoon Aik Muslim Aain Aap Ko Apne Ilm Ki Roshni Se Mustafeed Keroon, Or Aap Hi Faisla Kerna K Main Kitna Muslim Hoon.... Lal Masjid Main Kiya Hua, Pata Nahin...Doctor Aafia K Saath Kiya Hua, Pata Nahin...Sawaat Main Kiya Ho Raha Hai Kiun Ho Raha Hai, Pata Nahin....Economy Roz Broz Kiun Girtee Ja Rahee Hai, Pata Nahin....Pakistan Main Invest Kerne Walay Kahan Gaye, Pata Nahin....Cerruncy Kiun Girtee Ja Rahee Hai, Maloom Nahin....Mere Ird Gird Kiya Ho Raha Hai Ye Bhi Mujhe Maloom Nahin Hai...But Mere Ilm Ki Limit Yahaan Per Khatam Nahin Hoti Mujhe Or Buhat See Cheezon K Baaray Main Pata Hai.

Hmmmm......Mujhe Pata Hai K Main Apne Ghar K Ander Sakoon K Saath Betha Hoon, Gharoor Or Takabbur Mujh Per Ghaalb Aa Chuka Hai, Mujh Se Kamtar Log Mere Saamne Keeray Makoray Hain, Main Buhat Achi Or Mehgi Dressing Kerta Hun, Mere Dad Buhat Kama Lete Hain Govt Ki Jo Job Kerte Hain Upper Se Politition Bhi Hain Salary Kiya Kam Hai Jo Upper Se Bhi Lakhon Ho Jate Hai, Mujhe Pata Hai Main Haram Kha Raha Hun, Pata Hai Mere Ghar Main Wo Sab Kuch Hai Jo Aik Sakoon Ki Zindagee Guzaarnay K Liye Buhat Ziaada Hai, Aap Ko Pata Hai Mujhe Derr Nahin Lagta Na Mot Se Khaas Tor Per Uss Waqat Jab Main Kisi Ka Haq Maarta Hun Apne Se Kamter Per Zulam Kerta Hun, Buhat Bahadur Hun Main, Pata Hai Sab Mujh Se Derte Hai, Hum Ameer Se Ameer Ter Hote Jaa Rahe Hain, Pesa Hai K Kam Hone Kaa Naam Hi Nahin Leta Hai, Pata Hai Kiun Hmmmm....Hum Zakaat Jo Nahin Dete Hain...Kesa.

Lekin Mujhe Sakoon Ki Neend Nahin Aati Hai, Raat Ko Ac K Neechay Bhi Germee Lagtee, Naram Bister Per Bhi Sakoon Nahin Milta, Sab Kuch Kha Ker Bhi Aisa Lagta Hai K Main Bhooka Hun, Mere Umer Guzertee Ja Rahee Hai, Mujhe Derr Lagta Hai K Main Bherpoor Jawan Hone K Baad Bhoorra Ho Jao Ga, Jab Main Merne Wala Hun Ga To Mera Khazaana Mujhe Nahin Bacha Sake Ga, Mera Dil Kerta Hai K Main Sab Kuch Khareed Loon Apnee Zindagee, Apne Payaron Ki Zindagee Unhain Kuch Na Hone Doon, Pata Hai Mera Aik Bhai Andha Hai, Shayad Ye Mere Dad Ki Or Mere Liye Saza Hai, Main Apna Sab Kuch Kherch Ker K Bhi Ussay Theek Nahin Kerwa Sakta Hun...Doctor Kehte Hain K Wo Theek Nahin Ho Sakta Hai Usse Sirf Kisi Ki Dua Hi Theek Ker Saktee Hai, Perr Dua Keray Ga Kon Mere Dad Jo Gunaah Ki Deldal Main Itnaa Doob Chuke Hain K Nikalna Bhi Chahain To Nahin Nikal Saktay, Ya Main Main Kiya Dua Mangoon Ga Kis Moon Se Maangoon Ga Nahin Nahin Mujhe Sharam Aa Rahee Hai ALLAH Se Kuch Maangte Hue, Mere Mama Nahin Unhain To Apne Fashion Se Hi Fursat Nahin Hai......Main Kahan Jaaon Kiss Se Kahoon Mera Pesa Mere Kaam Kiun Nahin Aa Raha Hai, Mere Hirs Khatam Hona Ka Naam Hi Nahin Le Rahee Hai.......Aye Mere Maalik Main Kuch Bhi Nahin Hun Main Iss Kaabil To Nahin K Aap Se Kuch Maang Sekoon Apne Aap Ko Dekhta Hun To Sharam Se Ser Jukh Jata Hai Ya ALLAH Main Aaj Waada Kerta Hun Main Jihaad Keroon Ga, Dukhi Logon Ki Madad Keroon Ga, Kamzoron Ko Kandha Doon Ga, Mere Maalik Mujhe Maaf Ker Dain, Main Bhool Gaya Tha K 1 Roz Mujhe Merna Hai......Muhje Maaf Ker Dain....Mujhe Maaf Ker Dain.....Astaghfirullah.
 

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