Blame

(Dr. Shakira Nandini, Oporto)

Dr. Shakira Nandini

When I conceived, around then I didn't require anything, no bread, no water, and no materials. I didn't know any one and no any one thought about me. I was living in ocean, there was dejection, and there I was knoll and developing. Commonly passed, when my time completed in the ocean, at that point it was vital I turned out from the ocean. When I kept my initial phase on the planet, I heard shocking commotion and first time I saw the general population, individuals were wearing materials yet I was without fabrics. At the point when individuals took a gander at me then they snickered at me, I was in great circumstance (condition).

At the point when first time I putout my head from the ocean that time my head was exceptionally thin, one lady took my head and gotten it, I felt that my head isolated from my body. I couldn't bear this. I cried and begun sobbing and said that, I needn't bother with this world. That ocean was beneficial for me there was forlornness, there was harmony and wellbeing, there wasn't any clamor, yet I couldn't do anything on the grounds that my time was done in the ocean. Along these lines it was essential I turned out shape the ocean.

When I turn out from the ocean then I was shut in one room. The elderly person was getting my head and I was sobbing, gradually I turned out from the ocean and one Woman took sassier and cut my Navel, the other ladies was taking a gander at me precisely then she snickered and said she is a young lady, here I got Mother and father, however my folks were miserable from my introduction to the world, since they needed a kid, yet place of kid conceived a young lady, that was I, they given me name Maikaan, yet my folks didn't love me, they were not searching for me. They didn't purchase anything for me. I developed in the general public without my parent's assistance, following five years God gave my folks a kid. They saw him and they were extremely glad. He was my sibling they wanted to much my sibling. In his they overlook me. I was sobbing and crying ordinary, yet they didn't take consideration at my crying, they were disregarding me consistently. When I was seven years of age then my folks concluded that I'm load on them, in this manner they thought to place me in Hostel, where the kids live without guardians, that day came my dad took and abandoned me in inn and he returned home, that day I lost my folks. I begun sobbing and crying I called daddy I cherish you. Kindly don't abandon me here, I am your girl, I need to accompany you, since I am from your blood, I needn't bother with any new materials, new boots, new toys, and no any chocolates.

Daddy I need just your adoration. Kindly don't abandon me here. I can't forget here with you, you are my need, I cherish you, and I am your girl. Father! Why you would prefer not to listen me, why you don't comprehend me, why you don't take enthusiasm with me. Why you disregarded me and abandoning me. At long last let me know is it my blame

In any case, he would not like to listen me and abandoned me there, I was sobbing and crying, I called for help yet no body listen me. In that lodging one laborer came and grasped my hand, demonstrated me one room and said this is your place, listen me deliberately, in the event that you cleared out your room then it isn't beneficial for you and went out. That time no anyone helped me. I was sobbing and crying and I tired and dozed.

Commonly passed yet my folks not came to meet me. Consistently they sent cash for me. Be that as it may, they didn't comprehend, I have no need of cash yet I require my folks love, I recollected that them consistently. Entire thirteen years passed however my folks didn't come to meet me. Presently I am sitting tight for that time when my folks come and meet me. At that point I will ask them, what was my blame? Was that my blame, I conceived in your home! Was that my blame, I was a young lady? Was that my blame, I cherished you? Was that my blame, I don't enlighten you concerning anything. Was that my blame, I require your affection? Was that my blame, I can't be proprietor of your property. Toward the end what was the reason you disregarded me and returned home, and till today you didn't meet me. Presently I'm more youthful and considering, when my marriage parade will come. When I wear my marriage garments, When they turnover their darling hands on my head, When I will go my new home.
Father!
Mother!
Entire twenty years I am sitting tight for you, it would be ideal if you just a single time say me: it was my blame
also, excuse me, I will serve all of you my life…

Dr. Shakira Nandini
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