Mushkil Rastay episode5

Dairy Marah Haath May Thi....Or Amma Bi Nay Agay Kuch Nahin Likha Tha........Kiyun Amma Bi Aap Nay Aisa Kiyun Kiy A....Aap Mujhay ..... Kash Mujhay Yai Haqeeqth Na Batayee Hoti...Ah Kay Mmm May Aap Ki Beti Nahi .....Baba Jani Ki Beti Nahin......Kash Aap Wapis Ajain Or Kehdain Kay Yai Jhoot Hay Yai Sub Aap Nay Nahin Likha Hay May Wo Dairy Parhti Gayee Or Koyee Na Maloom Sa Dukh Meray Andar Uterta Gaya...

Mujhay Is Haqeeqath Ko Jaan Kar Jo Takleef Huyeee Thi....Jo Karb Or Aziyath Say May Guzar Rahi Thi Wo Mera Hi Dil Janta Hay.....Aap Jinhain Poori Zindagi Apna Samujhtay Rahay Hon Or Achanak Pata  Chalay Kay Un Say Aap Ka Koyee Taluq Hi Nahin Hay...To Aap Kay Mehsoosath Kiya Hungay...Meray To Pairon Kay Neechay Say Jaisay Zameen Hi Nahin Rahi Thi...Mera Wajood Aik Sawaliya Nishaan Ki  Terha Mujhay Lug Raha Tha...Saray Rishtay Mujh Say Chin Gai Thay....Is Samay Jaisay Kissi Nay  Mujhay Julti Dhoop May La Khara Kiya Ho....May Laypalak Thi Yahi Bohoth Takleef Da Baath Thi  Meray Liyai.....Aik Aag Thi Jo Mujhay Jala Rahi Thi Or Is Aag May Shaid Sub Jul Ker Khaak Hojanay  Wala Tha....May Bay Awaaz Ro Rahi Thi Ansoon Thumnay Ka Naam Nahin Lay Rahay Thay......Or Us  Samay Meri Piyari Amma Bi Meray Paas Nahin Thin Jo Meray Ansoon Ponch Tin ...Mujhay Seenay  Say Laga Lay Tin...Lakin Wo Kahin Nahin Thin......Shaid Wo Janti Thin Is Liyai Apni Moth Kay Baad Hi  Mujhay Qabar Honay Di.....May Rotay Rotay Hi Sogayee Thi....Pata Nahin Kaisay Aag Lug Gayee...............................

Utho Beti Fajr Ki Namaaz Ka Waqth Hogaya Hay...Tum Wadoo (Wazoo) Kerlo... Koyee Piyaar Say Meray Sir Per Haath Phairtay Huay Bola...May Nay Aik Dum Us Awaaz Per Ankhain Khol Din... To  Meray Nazdeek Aik Noorani Shakal Kay Buzrug Kharay Huay Thay...Arbon Jaisa Sufaid Libaas Zaibtun Kiyai Huay...Sufaid Buraaq Dari Or Cheray Per Itna Noor Kay May Ziyada Dair Unki Taraf Daikh Na  Payee....May Jo Rocking Chair Per Hi Baithay Baithay Sogayee Thi Forun Uth Baithi....

Aa Aap Kaun Hain Or Andar Kaisay Agai.... May To Hamesha Say Hi Yahan Rehta Hun....Albata Aap Say Pehli Baar Baath Horahi Hay... Meray Poochnay Per Wo Bolay.... Lakin Uffff...Yai Yai Sub Kiya Hay Meray Malik  May Sir Pakar Ker Phir Say Rocking Chair Per Baith Gayee.... Pareshaan Muth Ho Beti Waqth Tumhay Sub Kuch Pata Chal Jai Ga..... Wo Sumjhanay Walay Andaaz May Mujhay Kehnay Lagay....Hairath Ki Baath Yai Thi Kay Mujhay Unsay Khof  Mehsoos Nahin Horaha Tha....May Sirf Hairaan Thi...Jo Kuch Amma Bi Ki Dairy Say Mujhay Pata Chala Tha  Wo Bhi Kahani Kuch Ajeeb Si Thi....Or Ab Yai Buzrug Aik Kay Baad Aik Ajeeb O Ghareeb Halath Meri Zindagi May Shuroo Ho Chukay Thay Shaid Yai Ibteda Thi...

Pehlay Wadoo Kerlo...Namaz Kay Baad Tum Say Tafseel Say Baath Hogi.. Patanahi Kiyun May Unkay Kehnay Per Library Say Bahir Nikal Ayee....Apnay Or Saniya Kay Mushtrika Kamray May  Jub Ayee To Saniya Ko Gehri Neend Sotay Huay Paya...May Chup Chap Washroom May Jaker Wazoo Kernay Lagi.....

May Wazoo Ker Kay Us Chotay Say Kamray May Chali Ayee Jo Baba Jani Nay Apni Zindagi May Khas Tore  Per Namaz Kay Liyai Bunwaya Tha...Jub Andar Daqil Huyee To Unhi Buzrug Ko Namaz Parhtay Huay Paya... Wo Us Waqth Rukoo Ki Halath May May Bhi Janimaaz Bicha Ker Unkay Peechay Hi Khari Hogayee.... Namaz May Mujhay Itna Sukoon Mil Raha Tha Wo Aik Namaazi Hi Jaan Sukta Hay....May Sub Kuch Bhula Ker  Apnay Rub Ki Humd-O-Sana Wa Sallah May Apna Yai Taza Ghum Bhool Baithi.....Namaz Say Firaghath Kay Baad Dua Maangnay Lagi To Ankhon May Dhair Sa Pani Phir Say Agaya....

Yarub Beshak Amma Bi Or Baba Jani Meray Walaidain Nahin Thay Lakin Unho Nay Mujhay Sagi Aulad Say Barh Kar Cha Ha Hay...Beshak May May Un Ka Khoon Nahin Lakin May Unki Beti Hi Hun....Or Meray Naam Kay Saath Hamesha Baba Jani Ka Hi Naam Ai Ga Kissi Or Ka Naam Nahin....Ya Allah Unki Mughfirath Farma Or Unkay Darjaath Buland Kar...May Rotay Huay Dua Maangti Rahi.....Dua Kay Baad Janimaaz Teh Ker Kay Cupboard May Rakhi Or Un Kay Samnay Aakar Baith Gayee...Wo Hathon Ki Puroon Per Kuch Parh Rahay Thay.... May Khamoosh Baithi Huyee Thi Unsay Kuch Bhi Poochnay Ki Himmath Apnay Andar Nahin Pa Rahi Thi....

May Janta Hun Beti Tum Mujh Say Kiya Poochna Chati Ho...May Nay Unki Baath Per Kuch Na Kaha Bus Khamoosh Nazron Say Unhain Daikhay Gayee....Anginnath Sawal Thay Jo  Mujhay Unsay Or Apni Us Naam Nihaad Maa Say Poochnay Thay ...Meray Dil May Us Aurath Kay Liyai Jo Meri Haqeeqi Maa Thi Na Hi Mohobath Thi Or Na Hi Nafrath...

Apnay Dil May Budgumani Ko Paida Honay Muth Do Ayesha...... Us Waqth Tuk Koyee Budgumani Theek Nahin Jub Tuk Sahi Halath Or Sahih Haqaiq Ka Tumhay Ilm Nahin Hojata... May Chonk Ker Unhain Daikhnay Lagi...Wo Meri Mojooda Kafiyath Ko Bilkul Theek Sanujh Rahay Thay.... Koyee Bhi Normal Insaan Ko Ko Isterha Kay Halath Say Sabqa Paray To Shaid Wo Meri Hi Terha React Karay Ga Jaisa May  Apnay Andar Mehsoos Ker Rahi Thi...

Kiya Ap Mujhay Batana Pasand Karingay Kay Aisi Kiya Mujboori Us Aurath Ko Derpaish Thi Jis Ki Wajha Say  Us Nay Mujhay Kissi Or Kay Hawalay Ker Diya Tha...May Nay Tapay Lehjay May Un Say Sawal Kiya Beta Koyee Maa Apni Aulad Ko Kissi Ghair Kay Hawalay Kertay Huay So Baar Sochti Zaroor Hay....

Or Tumhari Maa Nay Bhi Tumhari Hi Khatir Aisa Faisla Kernay Per Mujboor Hogayeen Thin......Wo Kehtay Huay Aik Dum Meri Taraf Ghor Say Daikhnay Lagay Tum Janna Chati Ho Kiyun Zakira Kay Hawalay Tumhain Fatima Bibi Nay Kiya Tha....Tumhari Jaan Bachanay Kay Liyai...Fatima Bibi Ko Yai Mushkil Faisla Kerna Para Aisa Kiya Khatra Lahaq Tha Meri Jaan Ko Jo Unho Nay Aisa Faisla Kiya...May Nay Jirrah Ki...To Muskuratay Huay Meri Taraf Daikhnay Lagay Or Goya Huay ...Beti Is Kay Liyai Tumhay Apni Maa Ki Zindagi Ki Kahani Ko Janna Paraiga....Tumhari Maa Koyee Mamooli Aurath Nahin Hay Beti Or Na Hi Tumharay Walid Koyee Aam Or Mamooli Insaan Thay....................................................